Take a look at the movie 'Dracula' . yes i know that there are alot of movies concerning vampires/dracula, but this one strikes me as... different
aside from the blood sucking, mass murder, metamorphosis and other shit that involves vampires, the main point of this movie was, eternal love. yes, even evil people know how to love.
If you watched the movie, good for you! if not, then.. err.. so sad?
my point? ah, simple, eventhough how vile and evil one is, one tries to make love prevail.
no, im not anti-evil.. believe me, thats the last thing i want to be
did you ever though about how love drives one to the extreme that it makes the most hard core sons of bitches .. well.. how do I put this... 'weaklings'? yes, it seems that we draw our strength from love yet is is the source of our weakness. we put everything in one person, our life, our shit not knowing what lies ahead yet we put our cards on the table due to ONE person we 'love'.
so why is it too damn fuckin strong? simple, it kills
it kills.. you might me thinking.. WHAT THE FUCK? simple really, it kills you, it kills what you are, what you were, what was, will and can be. put everything on the line and you will notice yourself dying. don't take it the wrong way, somehow, it's a good thing. it changes a person.. for the better.. it makes a person GOOD instead of EVIL. the demons inside of us can't even compete, try and you will be left stunned fighting.
fighting in a way that you try to change, your demons try to fight it, try to keep everything.. still.. the same. yet knowing inside you that love is more important than death. demons are the source of our reasons, and when you put love in the equation, reason disapears... everything becomes pandemonium when we fight it...
and after all the fighting in your head.. there is always one result if your love is true... the demons fade, reason is distorted.. time stops.. and all you want is to hug the one you love, never letting go... and all that the demons do is.. watch.. thats all that they can do. . . watch how love conquered the evil inside of us
to put things simple.. love is imba... nerf it...
how come everytime we have a 'special' memory, we try to hold onto it as much as possible. Never letting go of a tiny spec in your life that you sometimes draw upon for, lets say, inspiration. More on, these memory that we hold so dear are amplified when it is shorten or it's span is but a glimps. Im not saying these duration is in minutes nor seconds, although it can be, an example of this is a simple kiss, it's duration can span from a glimps to a lifetime. But the shorter these special moments occure, the more we cling to it, never letting go even if weeks, months and years have already passed. We burden ourselves by trying to relive those moments over and over again on our heads yet we know they will always stay there as long as we permit it to be! it is sometimes annoying to go back and imagine what our lives could HAVE BEEN rather than what in CAN be if we move on. I don't know if these, no, if THIS memory is a plague that distorts everything that you have or is it a 'gift' to remind us of what we already have. maybe im looking at it the wrong way, maybe it's not a burden but a reminder of how and why I am at this point of my life. But why, why do we hold on to it? i believe that when these moments occure and we remember it, it means we passed a fork in the road. we chose and lived the path the we currently walk upon. but sometimes we keep thinking 'what if'. and for me, when we reach that point there is a doubt in your life that you have taken the wrong path. of course not everyone thinks 'what if' if they recall a certain moment, no, some people say to themselves, 'im glad'. no regrets... but what if, (aha, WHAT IF, damn im fucked up today) you say to yourself the same thing... 'what if i took that other path yet im glad im on the road i am in now'. that means you as fucked up as I am. these memories are the source of our overwhelming strength to carry on yet the same cause for our downfall. These memories serve their own purpose but the strong once that we consider 'special' are the once we need to understand. understand why we are in the road we have taken, our reasons, our motives, and use to to reinforce rather than to reconstruct the life we already have. but whatever happens, never forget, these are the only things we keep to ourselves, the source of everything we have, even the most painful or even regretful once. never fight the urge to remember, the moment you let go of something that had an impact in your life, trying to erase that other road that you did not take is taking away a piece of yourself. it is not a lost in your part that you regret if you chose to give in to the memory, but rather, use it to surge on, use it to make things right, there is no wrong road, we have all the right to choose, although there is no going back, but there is a chance to change. Forgive the typos, im fucked up this morning, no sleep yet....
This blog was made to channel out my thoughts that have come to exist out of the emptyness in my mind. Everyone has these thoughts that birth from the void in our mind, even you. The thoughts that spring out when you stare at the ceiling or walk alone in the streets at night. However, i have come to a conclusion to share my thoughts rather than let them disperse back into the emptyness of my mind only to come back for me to ponder upon once again. Although these are my thoughts on random things, none of these are fact in everyone's perspective. Eventhough all of my posts are taken from my point of view, none of it is meant to challenge yours. to start things of- How is it that the harder you work, the more you strive to become your own, choosing only brings you to second place? of course there are some excemptions, the well-known-successful-people. But lets focus on the majority of people, the ones that from the very beginning strive to make a better of themselves only to be overshadowed by spoiled brats that all their life was spoon fed that they can't even do a damn thing by themselves without a third person watching their ass and cleaning up their mistakes. What does a low life working hard person have to do to be noticed? ah, i know, suck up the the ones with money as if the rich people have enough people kissing their ass. Im not saying im mad at the people who actually has the luxury of having more than enough money, not at all, i mean that wealth came from hard work also. But the thing is, when you reach the top, some people doesn't care anymore, take note of the word 'some'. I just hate hearing about poeple with potential going through an obstacle because of that kind of system. aha, but don't get me wrong, i have experienced both sides of the coin.. there was a time that i admit, i was spoiled, private transportation to my school and anywhere else i wanted to go, life was easy as hell, life was fuckin good! then again, everytime we passed by those who are not as lucky as me, i couldn't stand myself. this is the reason why i started to commute, to experience the other side of the coin. must thing im a fuckin moron to give up the life of luxury... You see, at my state, you hear everything on both sides, the frustrations of the people who have money to the people who is striving thinking they are just pests, and the unfortunate ones that is saddened that they are overshadowed by the ones who have connections. my point? why can't we get along? - LOL my point is that i WISH the right people are appreciated, by both sides of the coin, reputation aside, connections aside. yes there are some striving people that get noticed but they have to do something super-duper-uber-hyper-over-wootwoot thing to get noticed unlike some people who just give out their last name then *BAM!* show me teh money!